Evaluation, part I
No matter how you look at it… life gets more confusing at times.
I am thrilled with how life is going for me actually, so don’t get me wrong. I’ve got it all going on right now. (really!) All except, (you had to know a *but* was coming) of course, I’m lacking that “someone special” to actually share the day-to-day stuff with. Why do I put so much freekin’ value in this? F*** if I know. It’s truly retarded, and I’m well aware of this. Put it this way: I love what I’m doing, business wise. I love my social life — my friends are incredible people! I couldn’t ask for a better support network. My ex, Vern, and I are doing great as roommates — fantastic, if you need an adjective to truly accent that. So, what the hell is wrong with me that I require someone beside me on a regular basis in order for my life to have true value? Am I really that co-dependant? Do I really need to be labelled?
Sigh. Perhaps, for once, I just need to stop the overevaluation — Stop The Insanity. Go with the flow. (ewww… wrong word choice, T.!) hahah… To be honest, the only thing that I am truly missing about having a significant other around (other than sex, which is an obvious shortcoming of being single) is falling asleep in a man’s strong, conforting arms. I put a ton of value on that. Perhaps I need to go back to a psychologist quack, and figure this all out.
Can anyone please tell me how someone goes for YEARS without a mate? I’m sure it gets easier, but I’m really missing those intimate conversations, that special tenderness that only your “someone special” can really impart, and those thrilling moments when you can’t wait to see what happens next.
DING! I have figured out why I’m in evaluation mode! Good God, why didn’t I think of this before… of course! It’s a little over three weeks from my birthday, and the official “Life Overview” has begun again. Some of you may know this annoying yearly series of questions I pose to myself, not to mention to all those around me who will listen without the blatent eye-rolls… Duhh.
Okay kids, it’s only a little over three weeks of this nonsense ’til I get past the ridiculous madness, and then it’ll be status quo again. Deal with it!
Love ya all!
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being virtually an expert on being single…well…you’ve just gotten out of the ‘mate’ situation and it definitely gets easier. There’s wonderful things that singledom gets you as well. You DO occasionally miss some things, but you really do get quite a bit of good stuff going too
…especially after enough bad dates!
Okay, Harp… so DO elaborate on WHAT the great things about being single are… I’m ALL ears
What I’ve really noticed so far is that all my single male friends now think I’m this great resource for casual sex… hahaha… uh… NO.
Thanks, come again. LOL…
Well… crap.. i hear DALLAS is nice this time of year
I might just take you up on that! I can’t wait to see Texas!!
great things about being single:
-freedom. Nobody to be responsible to.
-independence. Being your own mental/emotional source quite often gives that inner strength feeling.
-uh…there’s others, it’s too early for me to suss ‘em all out at the moment. I should e-mail you a proper list, or get me for a cup of joe sometime. But single life is a good one with admittedly a few cons…
Hey, ya, I get that! I’m still a little stuck on what I’m missing out on, rather than what I’ve gained from this freedom.
I’m getting there!
Lets grab a joe sometime! Your occupation and mine parallel in some ways! (As I regularily use Premiere to do basic editing for online delivery of video) — Okay, it’s stretch!
sure being single does have some perks, but the major thing that keeps me looking for that special person is this: spooning. gawd, i love spooning. it’s the ultimate feeling and well worth enduring bad dates
I have to agree with Col!!
Cuddling ROCKS MY WORLD
I do think spooning rawks, agreed there…especially when cold…
zap me an e-mail and we’ll joe it…ooh, and I’ll avoid making fun of Adobe Premier too