I’m an angry bitch.
It’s official — I’m an angry bitch today. I was having a fairly productive, happy day until later this afternoon when I realized that I had nothing to do tonight as my plans had changed from tonight to tomorrow night. Upon calling around, it became obvious that my last minute ditch effort to find some fun wasn’t going to pay off. Consequently, I’m going to do something by myself, for myself.
To be honest, it’s probably for the best, because I certainly wouldn’t want to be one of my friends around me tonight. Come to think of it… That’s probably WHY I don’t have anyone to do anything with this evening — My tone of voice came shining through as I called around I’m sure.
It’s actually a bit ridiculous how easily things set me off, lately. A person’s careless demeanor towards me shouldn’t throw me into a bitchy, frustrated tailspin but I guess I have a lot of underlying frustration and hurt that I’m dealing with right now that is probably finding it’s way to the surface — I hate it when that happens.
I’m actually quite relieved that I’m single right now, because I don’t think I could deal with anything other than what’s already on my ever-expanding “personal-check-list-for-feeling-better”… That’s a long freekin’ list, and it’s daunting enough. Who needs a mate, anyhow, I say. Looking back, my happier times over the past couple of years have been while I was single and doing my own thing, anyhow. There’s certainly a whole lot less to worry about being single. Maybe I shouldn’t be in a relationship with anyone. Ever. It’s pretty obvious that my last several relationships with people have been anything but a glowing example of wonderful couplehood.
On that note, I think I’ll grab a drink, or 6.
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*hugs* you know, I don’t have your phone #!
don’t worry about drinking, that will happen on thursday!
ps. i saw casablanca tonight and i think that if you swear off men, ingrid bergman could be a replacement…
just a thought
I Think I’ve been slammed….
Why would you think that?
Its so hard to not let someone’s careless demeaner get you all in a tizzy, just remember they dont *really* have the power to get you down unless you hand it to them. Sounds like you need a vacation, STAT!
Holy Hurricane Tanya. Sometimes it’s good to be bitchy. Emotions are healthy. I’m more afraid of people who don’t display some sort of anger streak occasionally. As for your relationship quest, you’re almost there! Looks like you’re moving from Anger to Acceptance. The next stage is Normalization and then of to Resolution! Then BAM! You’ll find the person of your dreams without even realizing it.
Then again, what the hell do I know…
Hey Col… Ya I don’t have your number either. We’ll have to do some exchanging of that info on Thurs (or via email before!). …And, heck, I’m *really* considering swearing off men. That’s a thought!
MJ: Yes, I do need a vacation… And, I did have one not that long ago. I’m not doing something right.
Paul: As usual, you kill me
I’m getting there!