Self destruction mode… Initiated.
This morning I scrolled through my phone for someone to call… Because I really need a mental hug right now, and I was afraid to call everyone in my address book. They have all given me far too much already. I can’t ask for more from them.
I was so incredibly happy two days ago, and now I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom again. Below bottom. I’m scraping the earth’s crust. I’d like off this rollercoaster ride now. Why does life have to have such extremes?
I feel lost, alone, and pretty damn stupid right now for believing that this relationship would ever work. I am wondering when life is supposed to get better, because it feels pretty horrible right now.
EDIT: I’m dealing with life, and trying not to make too many mistakes. I’m learning.
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Thanks guys! I’m feeling much better today! I think getting out rowing tonight will be perfect for me to get my head on straight.
xoxoxo
Maybe it’s just me, but I think you should be comfortable asking of your friends what you so generously provide. These are your friends after all, and they are that for a reason.
Consider yourself hugged, virtually.
*hug* You can get my number from Jen, if you want. I’m only here for another 2 days, but I’m a good listener. I’m sorry you’re going through this right now and please, your friends are friends for a reason – don’t be afraid to ask for help.
Tanya, my dear, I would phone you to give you a mental hug, but I don’t have your phone number. Incidentally the people whose phone numbers are listed on your company’s website are all really nice people.
If you need low-key, comforting company this afternoon, Artos and I are going for a swim and erg in Kerrisdale. We’d be happy to take your mind off things and feed you yummy food all afternoon!