I feel awful when I get like this but…
…I just can’t help it.
These past few days haven’t been the best, physically speaking. It could definitely be a whole lot worse, and really, I’m just being a suck / pathetic / wuss (You take your pick) — Combine that with the anxiety of an upcoming trip I’m not even close to being ready for, as well as Christmas Day (who travels on Christmas Day?? — Take it from me, just *don’t* do it! It’s too stressful!) which I haven’t finished shopping for, and throw in work-related deadlines that I’m stressing about, and you’ve got a Tanya which really isn’t a lot of fun to be around.
Take last night for example. I had a perfectly nice evening at a dinner put on by Andrea, where I got to meet a lot of people I’ve only heard about or read blogs of, but by the time I got out of the restaurant, I could feel the frustration with all of the above mounting within me. And, with a walk home in the rain (which caused my brand new leather jacket to get all water-marked) with both my feet blistered from walking in crappy / badly designed boots the other night, I was downright crabby. All I could think of was that I’ll be in Europe in less than a week, and my feet won’t be able to take me anywhere because I forgot to put bandaids on the open blisters yesterday.
!#)*$&$#)(!
And of course, Michael is taking this all in, and has no idea what’s going on with me.
I feel like a dumbass.
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*hug*
You’re human…welcome to Earth! I’m sure Michael has his bad days too. Just take it one step at a time.
yes, you are human. don’t push it
you’ll be fine. be excited about your trip, just think how amazing it will all be!
Sweets, You’re beautiful, Im crazy about you, and last night turned out great
i’m happy to finally meet you! too bad we didn’t get to talk that much! it was too big a party and weird set up to do too much mingling.
but it was great seeing you and mj. should do something again!
hope you feel better.
Hey T…don’t go gettin your gold locks in a knot. Stay positive, like we all know you are, and just focus on how much fun your trip is going to be. I find saying ‘Happy Xmas to people puts a smile on my face.
It will all come together! A little stressfull now, sure, but just think about the first time you wake up and realize you’re in Europe with all the time in the world at your fingertips to play and explore!
oh my god, you’re NOT PERFECT? My world is shattered. Michael’s too, I bet.
Sorry that you are not feeling well Tanya let me know if you need anything.
And I would also like to add…awww man – MJ is the sweetest thing!!!
I hope you have a wonderful, relaxing time on your trip. Sounds like you really need it. I’m having a few people over on friday evening. I’ll email you the details on the off chance that you actually have some free time before you take off.
charlene
Thanks everyone… Your thoughtful words helped…
I’m pretty much on top of everything now, which is a relief! I leave in 3.5 days!!! Zoiks!
Enjoy the trip and leave teh last few days behind
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Michele sent me