Groundhog Day?
[caution: somewhat self-loathing post ahead]
These past few weeks have felt like I was right in the middle of the movie, Groundhog Day, where I find myself re-living very similar days again… and again… and again.  My everyday life feels fairly mundane, and daily activities are performed with very little enthusiasm. And, honestly, I have no reason to feel this way. None whatsoever.
And yet. I can’t shake it.
There’s a ton of activities and events coming up that I am looking forward to (White Water Rafting this weekend, a wedding on Saltspring Island in a few weeks, a cruise in November), so why am I feeling this way? I find myself regularily apologizing to my Sweetie for not being more exciting, and berating myself for not finding more things to be happy about in my day-to-day life. I’ve got a great life with someone who loves me deeply, great friends, great job(s), and a ton to be thankful for.
Once again, I’m probably feeling this way due to that ridiculous hormone swing brought about by my waning Depo Provera deposits. I am due for a shot this week. Maybe I should just get the darn shot, and stop whining so much about how blah my life is.
[/self-loathing post]
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I hear you, Tan, but since your boyfriend is with you–perhaps these characteristics that you don’t like in yourself, don’t bother him. If he didn’t like you, he’d not be there with you. LOL I know, I know. I’m using logic to counteract negative emotions and that’s not the way to do it. I’m sure your bad feelings will pass, Tan. There’s plenty of reason for you to have “Sweetie” and all your friends. BTW, I love Groundhog Day. One of the best transformation movies ever.
These times are important. No matter what life is to you… these times will always happen. I reacon it is due to a renewal period after a time of uncertainty.
Instead of a satisfying lull, the leap across the chasm involves taking a few deep breaths while in mid air. You will get that.
And for me… you know what I am doing… just chilling… playing music… and waiting for the future to come to me.
Been there done that, I know exactly what you mean… however it’ll pass and at times like that it does not take me very far to look to realise how spoiled, lucky and extremely fortunate we are to live in Canada or many priviledged societies around the world.
You’re one of the most lively, full of life, happy people I know! I love hanging out with you because you energize everyone around you, including me. If you’re having a down period I’m confident it will turn around for you.
I think maybe it’s the time of year because I know others who are saying the same thing and honestly I’ve been feeling like that, too. Even a few weeks ago I was super positive girl planning a million goals for the future and lately I’ve been kindof … meh.
That said, you have great opportunities coming up to get away and rejuvenate and to re-ignite that passion, and it will happen! The season is changing and I think that has a lot of influence… leaves are already starting to change if you look for it and the air is cooler at night. It’s a good time of the year to get away – as you already have planned – to reflect and rejuvenate to prepare for the new season ahead.
(Oh – and to go for dinner & drinks with us as soon as we literally have a spare minute – we miss you guys! Maybe next Friday, the 8th? Are you free? It’s the only free date we have a for a long time!)
Dave, I loved Groundhog Day, too. Thanks for the shot in the arm… You are right.
Java — I agree. I just need to go with the flow. I guess that’s what happens after so much stress and passion exerted, there’s a down period to re-build my reserves. But, man, I’m looking forward to those uptimes really soon.
Kiwigirl! Thanks for your kind words, and you couldn’t be more right. How’s that belly of yours? We really *do* need to catch up before your new addition comes into the world. We’re gone this weekend, but how about mid-next week in the evening?
Awww, Miranda… I’m *so* lucky to have a friend like you! You inspire me, girl! You make me laugh (okay, you and Reilly combined make me howl!) and I love hanging with you. Good times. Good times!
I’m so glad you guys moved here!
Let’s go out on a limb and say, yes! Let’s do next Friday — I’m sure my man will correct me, but I don’t see anything in our Google calendar.