Thousands of miles away, and starting to really feel it.
Normally, when things are going even “okay” in my life, when I get away on vacation, I enjoy myself and have a good time.
But, I’ve noticed something.
When I’m travelling single (as in, might as well be alone), I *really* feel alone. It’s amplified.
This has not been a good trip. Really, I should have taken the thousands of dollars in loss and cancelled this trip despite the fact that I didn’t have a cancellation policy in place because I booked the cruise on such short notice when I thought my Dad was doing okay. I should have just chalked it up to loss. Or, “Shit happens” or, something.
Yes, I traveled with a friend on this vacation, and yes, this person was certainly there for me when I needed them the most the night I found out about my Dad dying, but, they are also going through their own stuff, and quite honestly, I haven’t seen my friend for much of the trip after the first couple of days.
Which, of course, has left me feeling more alone.
Ya ya… I can hear you now — You are in the middle of the damned Med. Seriously, deal with it.
I’m trying. I really just want to come home now. They Call Me Trinity… movie download
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you’ll be ok. you’ll hit some point where you don’t want to come back… and if thats the case, can I have your xbox?
My thoughts and caring are with you. Your friends are waiting for you…
Ha Shnewt… If I jump off the ship before I get off tomorrow, you can have my XBox. Deal!
Thanks Russ. I really am missing everyone. And this $.50 cents a minute to reach out is bloody expensive for less than dial up speeds.
Give me a B! Give me an A!
B-A-R-C-E-L-O-N-A!!
Eagle eagle.
Really.
xo
t
How many more sleeps until you come home?
I know how you feel about wanting to be home when shit hits the rotating blades.
I am sorry for your loss. You have my sympathies.
I dropped by having only just re-surfaced myself from a ton of work and realise how much you have been going through over the last few days.
Firstly my condolences and we all know this overshadows all of the cruise.
My thought, though, is that you need to give yourself permission to be “in the moment” for the days before you get back. However bitter-sweet, its probably good to take back some “uppers” in your thoughts during this tough time.
Have strength.
rashbre x
Thanks you guys for the kind words. You are right, Rashbre… That’s exactly what I’m doing. I’m also very much looking forward getting home.
Hey Chicka…
Van is getting along okay without you. You had better force yourself into having a good time on this trip… you don’t want to look back in a few years and think of what a lousy time you had. Besides, the hot guy around the corner from you will sense your grumpiness and walk right past you. Put a smile on your face, believe that you are right where you should be at this moment and know that a vacation means getting away from everyday life. That’s what you are doing. Enjoy it!
T