What? It’s self-review time? You don’t say…
Here we go again… I get all freaked out during the week(s) leading up to my birthday. In fact, you’ll see a theme, if you look back on previous birthday weeks, so this isn’t abnormal.
I can’t believe I’m turning 42 on Saturday. Fourty. Two. That doesn’t even sound right! I refuse to get all weepy and sad, but it’s hard not to look at that number and be self-critical about where I’m at, at this point in my life path.
Let’s face it, embarking on a new career that is still fresh – under two years, I have to keep reminding myself – is hard during mid-life-crisis time. I went from decision maker and a go-to person in my previous career to low gal on the totem pole (okay, not bottom, mind you, but certainly not yet where I want to be yet)… I can’t tell you how ego-bruising that is. So, it’s especially hard when turning the spotlight on my path, which is impossible for me not to do during this time of year. Trust me, I’ve tried everything I can to stop the introspection. It is what it is… So, I get through it and move on, year after year.
So, I’m chalking my self-review up with a checkmark – I’m on track. None of this news. This time next year, I should be close to stepping into my role that I’ve been working so darn hard to get to, and that will feel a lot better than the learning curve I’m currently working through.
And, hey, I’ve got a lot of great stuff I’m really happy about in my life… a supportive, loving husband, some really sweet and thoughtful friends, and my family whom I adore. What more could a girl really ask for?
Not much… Self-review over. It’s time to celebrate my birthday with a wonderful group of friends on Saturday. Bring on the fun!
YOUR TURN: Do you go through a self-review around your birthday? How do you handle it?
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