Okay, I have a nifty Christmas gift (not re-gifted, or anything!) that I’ll send out to the best (weirdest, funniest, silliest) dating story someone leaves in my comments.

*   I’ll be completely impartial, and put a voting mechanism on this site to ensure everyone gets a crack at winning!

** Contest closes for voting on Friday, December 15th at 11:59 pm!

So… Give me what you got! 

“When one door closes, another door opens.”

I have come to realize over the past two weeks (give or take a day) that I can’t have closure if I keep looking back.  Yes, I need to learn from my experiences, and trust me, these recent lessons won’t fade.  But, I can only move ahead with my future when I close that door to what was then.  I’m sure I’ll have lapses, but it’s time…

Today, I’m kicking that door shut.  I’ve had two weeks of feeling sorry for myself, and now I must move past this angst and grief.  I’m ready… I woke up this morning and actually enjoyed the freedom of blaring my music and singing at the top of my lungs while I got ready for work.

I’ve also taken several people’s advice about starting a training program, and am already feeling healthier because of it.

So, get ready world… Tanya’s back.

 

ps: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TODDLES!  (My brother turns a year older today…)

It’s back!

What are your two favourite things about the holiday season?

Me first:

1. – I absolutely love Christmas morning… Those that have spent it with me in the past will attest to the fact that I literally jump up and down on the bed very early that morning, squealing with glee.  It’s not about the presents for me but about the exhileration of the moment.  It’s one of the moments I can recall as a child that I can hold on to as always incredible.
2. – The time I get to spend with my friends and family enjoying the season of joy and togetherness.  I absolutely love Christmas parties, and Christmas dinner shared with the people I love.  How could I ask for anything better than that?

Your turn!

First off, I had a great weekend with 12 other chicks up in Whistler.  The accomodations were awesome… 2 hottubs, 5 bedrooms, a huge kitchen and livingroom, and a five minute walk to the base of Whistler Mountain.  The ski day was fun, although on my last run I did fall coming off the lift and badly hurt my tailbone.  Ouch!  One thing I’ll definitely take from this adventure is that I need to get back into shape…

Late Sunday and into today, I’ve been feeling fairly down.  I know it’s just a part of the process, but it sucks.  I’m finding myself missing Michael, and I feel like I’m on the verge of tears throughout the day.  I hope that this passes soon, because I’m really tired of feeling so awful.  It’s the little things that I am missing so much — The day-to-day rituals that one normally takes for granted that has left a huge hole in my life.

Anyhow… I’m just feeling really sucky and sad today.

How was your weekend?

Although, each morning brings a brighter start to my day than the day before, I still find myself searching for tools to get through this disaster.  Obviously, drinking myself silly every night isn’t the answer, and keeping busy works to a point, but when I find myself in bed alone at night, my head starts to reel with all the “what-ifs”, and “what’s next”.  Standard fare, I know… But obsessively thinking about this stuff isn’t good.

Time is the biggest healer, but there’s got to be something I can do to feel better while time passes.  I don’t want to take two steps forward to take one step back during this whole process.

Anyone have any ideas?

It started off really well.  I got a great, full night’s sleep last night, and woke up refreshed this morning.

When I got into the car to head to the office, my favourite song was playing on the radio: All I Wanna Do by Sheryl Crow (a song I regularily live my life by)… How could I not smile with that blaring as I made my way through traffic on a sunny Thursday morning?

Things are looking up.  I have much to be thankful for…

The weekend is nearly here!  What’s everyone looking forward to?  Me?  I’m off for an extreme chick weekend at Whistler!  Yay!!

And, before I forget… I’m making turkey dinner this year on Christmas Day.  Are you a refugee, and would like to join myself, Miranda and Reilly for some good eats and Christmas cheer?  Please feel free to drop me a line!  Don’t be shy!

We laughed through “A Prairie Home Companion” last night… Here’s a few quotes that I thoroughly enjoyed!

Garrison Keillor: We come from people who brought us up to believe that life is a struggle, and if you should feel really happy, be patient: this will pass.
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Guy Noir: Look, I’m a man of the world like yourself. But these people, they’ve put their lives into this show.
Axeman: Well now they can put their lives into something else. That’s the beauty of the world, there’s always something to put your life into.
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Jearlyn Steele: Why do you work so hard to get what you don’t even want?
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Dusty: When God created woman / He gave her not two breasts but three. / When the middle one got in the way, / God performed surgery. / Woman stood before God / With the middle breast in hand / Said,”What do we do with the useless boob?” / And God created man.
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Lefty: Why do they call it PMS? Because Mad Cow was already taken. 
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Yolanda Johnson: Duct tape will not make an honest man out of you.

What’s your favourite movie quote?

Wow, I have some truly amazing friends & family. 

Let’s see… Over the past five days, I’ve sobbed on their shoulders, (sorry about the mascara), woke them up at 4am, called them countless times, invited myself out to S’s work Christmas party as her date (no, I’ve not gone to the darkside), been incredibly needy, and all-in-all, been on an emotional rollercoaster making me not a ton of fun to be around.

But, today I hit bottom.  There’s only going up from here. 

So, thanks everyone.  Hitting bottom without your help would have hurt a ton more…  I love you guys!